friends.

this song

reminds me of him.
and just yesterday
he said


sarah, you can't move.
we just started to be friends.

made me smile.

The Beatles

 george paul ringo and john

folks
i am in love with these lads.
been listening constantly to all the songs i never heard.
and all the ones i have.

Dear Future Husband,

Our love will be timeless.

 like the beatles.

love,

sarah.

yesterday
i put on those old converse i like to blog about
and i ran a long ways.
and today
i'm walking like a person with a bad case of multiple sclerosis.

haven't been this sore for a long long time.

p.s. sometimes you get a compliment that's so generous and sweet
that it makes you cry.
and you can't even think up an appropriate response.

Walk The Line

this movie got to me in an indescribably personal way

. 

i wish i had a way to keep him on my side
he walks the line.

lady luck,
smile at me
and my sister becky please
(although she has much more than luck going for her)
i could win a 1,000 dollar scholarship to help me pay for Europe.
it's a drawing. 
: / 
waiting. waiting. waiting. 
becky is waiting for a call about a job. 

waiting is hard.
say a little prayer mmk?

an idea got planted in my head monday.
and oh my
is it growing. 


my dreams for the future keep getting bigger and bigger
in an awing, daunting, inspiring, joy filled way. 

i want to create neverland. or maybe wonderland.

a place to find the wonder and delight in the world we might have lost.

i want a healing center.

a rehab

of a different sort. 

this big idea just began to evolve. 

so i'll refrain from saying much. 

just that

i'm exciting to provide something that i think the world needs. 

a favorite photographer of mine Ann He did a shoot that portrays a piece of my dreams perfectly.

Have you ever been alone in a crowded room

i miss the people that know me.

but that isn't even myself lately.

i'm so lost in myself.

sorry if i seem distant. 

i kinda am.

it is the hour
where i wish i could sleep.
my head keeps going over the same old things. 
my life is going a direction i didn't see coming. 
i'm in a chapter that's harder. 
but i'm not hiding, floating, numbing
i'm dealing. 
and i'll grow
into something beautiful
like a flower. 

The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears.

John Vance Cheney

Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind you.

Maori Proverb

When it is dark enough, you can see the stars.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

When you are falling from a mountain, you may as well attempt to fly.

"Babylon 5"

they tell me it's dangerous to explore the world by myself.
so I've resolved i'll need an adventurous husband to explore it with me.
buddy system style.

Dear Future Husband,
let's live in a car free city by the beach somewhere in Europe for a while.
love,
sarah.



p.s. let's really live life. 

i heard once that the best camera you can possibly have is the one you have with you
and it's not that my nikon d40 is thaat big but it's a bit much to take everywhere and a little too valuable. 
so I've been taking my Pop's old point and shoot everywhere with me
and taking lots of goofy pointless photos. 
that i'd like to share.  
i biked to bridal veil falls one last time before the weather makes it too disagreeable. 

  love my biking buddies

love waterfalls 

 love my old converse. 

and my very useful legs and feet for that matter.

 love that bow

 love this canyon in the fall. 

love little girls

love these crazies.

love my neat sis.

love being silly

love calling up my best friend

(call me, stupid) 

love this guy

(let's hang, stupid)

love bugging my bed mate

love walking in the rain

love coco

love taking photos & love my life

cheer up.

who wants to bake a cake?

played chicken with the send button for a while tonight. 

hope my words will find an open mind. 

joy.

you are my sunshine kid.

some clever people have said some good things.

“ Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great. ”

 -mark twain

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,

gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking

so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.

It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give

other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our fear,

our presence automatically liberates others." -Marianne Williamson

"It is never too late to be who you might have been."

-george eliot

“The greatest victory has been to be able to live with myself, to accept my shortcomings. ...I’m a long way from the human being I’d like to be. But I’ve decided I’m not so bad after all” -Audrey Hepburn

one evening at candlelight meditation we started talking about the light we all have, and how we can brighten the world with it. how we need to spread happiness, share light, serve and love others. my dear friend elizabeth said that part of letting your light shine is not dimming other peoples light in effort to make yours seem brighter. Instead admire it, help them, share what light you find with them. happiness is never ending, so no use in hording.  

a boy i fell very in love with helped me see my own light.

he helped me heal myself.

as well as my friends.

my family.

i am a lucky girl.

i hope all those people in my life, can see their great potential, their great light, their wondrous selves. 

it'd be a shame to miss it.