ramblings about rememberings

i'm sitting on colas bedroom floor
she's hemping my hair
it's gonna to be cute.

i cried a few minutes ago.
she's taking a picture of me right now.
i'm not wearing make up :/
ohs wells.
she's reassuring me with promises of visits calls and webcaming.
we've been talking about past ventures

dialogue going both ways and just current thoughts-

good luck tryin to make sense of it :)

remember that one time at a state acapella competition when i had to go on stage with handcuffs.. cause they jammed up on my wrist right before we had to go up.
what were we doing with handcuffs anyways?
oh wait, we bought them at days during lunch.
we never bought lunch, just toys.
like silly putty and bows and arrows.
and remember that one time mike shot a car with an arrow and it stuck?
and the lady came back around and gave it to us... as it was stuck on the drivers side window.
and remember that one time we went to st. louis?
"the car ride was so fun." (apparently she doesn't remember me biting her)
remember when we hiked bridal veil?
and i fell in the river
and i held that one guys hand for the very first time
and paul was being a baby about the mud
and remember that one time we took ugly pics and laughed and laughed and talked all night?
and remember when you kidnapped me on my birthday?
and i kidnapped you on yours.
and remember the first time we really talked sophomore year?
we spilled all our dirty secrets.
we hadn't even hung out yet.
and remember how we would always cry in the choir room.
dance concerts, choir concerts, plain ole class.
larson probably got sick of us haha.
it was just nerves or somethin...
remember when you were having a hard night?
and i came over and we stayed up in the dark talking.
remember when i cried my eyes out about senior ball?
remember singing in geo?
"HONK" "yes? hello?"?
remember that night at 2 in the morning when we peed on the byu cougar statue?
cause pizza hut wouldn't let us use their bathrooms. and DQ only had a mexi creeper and you didn't want to go in.
remember that one night when you peed on my dress?
bahahahaha.
um.
remember hot tubing?
with saria
and those boys.
and hopping fences and fighting for the space under the hand dryer.
remember our bike ride with susan and jenna?
to the lake.. and we got soaked when going under the overpass.
and you got mud sprayed up the back of your white shorts and it looked like diarrhea.. we even took a picture.
remember the night geo died?
and we had our night out on the town. got spray paint and went to velour and got gyros.
and that one guy wrote his number on my wrapper at pita pit.
remember me teaching you yoga on your roof early morning?
and staying up till four talking about yoga and philosophy's and happiness.
remember kayaking?
fun.
"sarah we're gonna be friends forever right?"
"no i expect an answer don't write it down.."
"right":)
i found a birthday card you gave me the other day
about us being grandmas together.
it'll happen
"done" (with the hemp braid)

oh and boating!

another thing not to forget :)

i even painted my toe nails for the occasion

love how we're squinting

best boating past time around.

nother-dad :) 

smallest-biggest

i love utah lake. and friends. and the kind of friend's family that feels like family.

so pretty. thanks for that day cola

moments to not forget

my journal is locked in a safe that i lost the key to.
problematic? yes.

little things happening of late that i'd like to record-
i photographed a wedding and have been working on the pictures constantly (kinda getting old but o well)
a fun bike ride and time spent with a certain somebody.
getting to know this boy i worked with :)
a fun group date in which me and my bff cola set up our older siblings.
playing keys.. hahaha.
sorshas wedding and watching uncle matt dance.. (OH baby)
yoga training (obviously.. i blog about it a lot) 
the last day felt like testimony meeting yoga style
with everyone sharing things that means a lot to them, and trusting to be accepted.
amber sang t swifts a place in this world. she has an amazing voice, as in better than t swifts.
she played her guitar.. and
i wish i had talent like that.
i love these girls :)

yoga training was great. 

all the fun time spent with friends

our day at the res

i'm kinda proud of this picture. 

and this one.. baha. it was trickier than one would think catching a pic of bretts funny looking belly button.

cola and i playing around in Allens. they thought we were stealing stuff due to complaints from customers and went through our bags.apparently us five foot blondes are terrorizing the local grocery shoppers

 

and lagoon! 

(much more entertaining with his voice.. but the head bobbing will have to be enough)

the boys watched and laughed when cola and i went on the merry-go-round (losers)

we had fun.

what the brennon? haha

hahahaha favorite picture.

band-aid

i don't even know..

cola

short :(

brett: high. daniel: drunk. brennon: both. :) jkjk.

retards.

in the best way possible.


we've had a lot of good times. 

cola is headed off to idaho for school. 
in 1 week 
and i miss her already

i don't know what i'm supposed to do without my very best friend.

i'm a dreamer

and i'm dreaming my future

i'm feeling this strange suspension. 

what could be next.

so many possibilities 

this is when school would start. but now the slate's just blank. waiting for me to write on it.

and right now i'm set on pursuing traditional ashtanga vinyasa yoga

future thoughts give me the butterflies. 

dreaming is where it begins.

i remember over a year ago i was on a walk in river woods

and stopped and looked in a yoga studio, i made eye contact with the instructor and 

we had a little moment.

that's when my interest sparked.

the other day i was practice teaching in that same studio and a girl outside and i made eye contact.

it was one of those full circle moments.  

 p.s. i finished training and passed my test :) 

i ♥ my cousins :)

we've all been so busy doin our own things but i want to get closer to them again. 

they've been my life long comrades. 

 Brynns wedding june 2010

here is my philosophy (the ending result of yoga training), which i'm sure is to be ever changing and growing. 

yoga means alive.

from beginning to finish

from when i wake up till i fall asleep

on and off the mat

feeling energy.

from the first Ujjayi breath to exhaling into Savasana

yoga is breath, and the life behind movement.

it helps me feel the body i'm in.

yoga is guidance.

the guidance within myself.

it helped me discover my own body

and what it actually feels like to be connected to it.

it helped me listen to it and trust it.

the intuition you helped me discover helped me heal it.

yoga is an internal source of healing

which makes sense

people always show us outward sources of healing, pop this pill, rub this on your forehead, wrap this around your knee...

yoga starts from the inside, which is where healing needs to happen. 

heats us, aligns us, and helps us come to our best self.

yoga is loud.

that overwhelmingly loud breath that pushes away thought.

and yoga is quiet

so quiet in meditation.

yoga is breath

and each breath is you in that present moment

the past and the future don't exist right now

and in each moment there is unlimited potential

yoga is love.

love for my self, for my body, and for my life.

helping me make life better.

and giving my body a gift everyday.

it helps me be less worried

more peaceful

more grateful

more joyful.

it brings me to be humble, and open minded.

For me yoga is a learning process, that'll never end.

no expectations, yet no limits.

thank you yoga.

i can't wait to share you.

and see yoga help other people discover the answers they need. 

finals are just beginnings.

big final test tomorrow.
Big test.
this test determines if i'm yoga instructor worthy.
these four weeks of training have been an absolutely amazing journey.

highlights:

meditation today (i left earth for an hour in a guided meditation)

guest speaker: Curt-comedy sports owner
shy me didn't know silly improv games could be so fun.

doing yoga six days a week.

learning how to share what i love most- and putting together my yoga philosophy (which is a coming soon post)
but you can sum it up in- Love the body you're in, and take care of it.

learning the science and anatomy behind it, how and why it works so well.. through monica and a guest speaking psychologist (whom did testing that showed me to be a pessimist.. i resent that)

the people i have met.

how i re-met myself.
such a process of self discovery

the opportunities that are coming.

and
how I at the age of 18 have this tool for the rest of my life. This wonderful knowledge, so that i can use it to love, heal, and strengthen my body, spirit and mind. :):):).
nothing will ever separate yoga and i.

"practice and all is coming"

-pattabhi jois.

ashtanga vinyasa yoga has been passed from Pattabhi Jois (the father)

to Larry Shultz

to Amy Williams

to me

and i am so so grateful.

it has brought me so far, and will take me much further. 

in yoga terms

om

vande gurunam charanaravinde

sandarshita svatma sukhava bodhe

nih shreyase jangalikayamane

samsara halahala mohashantyai

abahu purusakaram

shankhacakrasi dharinam

sahasra shirasam shvetam

pranamami patanjalim

om

or to keep it simple

namaste.

♥ someday- john legend. listen to it. right now. 

♥ 

yoga

fruit

& julia

today was a combination of all three
thus today was a great day. 

also-

brand new key- melanie

lighthouse- the hush sound

long long time- linda ronstadt

go listen.

dear blog, i get oh so frustrated.

you can't really trust anybody to stick around these days.

except perhaps your family.

(i love my family very very much)

i put my eggs into too few of baskets.

and now  i'm getting a complex about creating relationships

possibly because i'm running out of eggs.

i'm too busy. (yoga training+work+fam reunion=too busy)  and since we're speaking of eggs.. i feel like a chicken

running around with its head cut off. 

(no wonder i'm running out of eggs) 

just sayin. 

so i shall-

just keep swimming

(now we're speaking of fish)

with a smile on my face

and so that smile is pretty, i'm going to go brush my teeth
night

hippie post

tonights sky made me fall in love all over again

with the world around me

i think we all connect to the world sometimes

cannon beach june 21 2010

i connect
when i walk barefoot in grass. when i take long exposures of the night sky, when i walk through tall grass in the hills, when i feel sunshine on my eye lids, when i catch the sunrise on a early morning road trip, when i listen to the thunder and the wind, when i dig my feet in the sand at the beach, play in tide pools,
when i stop and notice the flowers.
sit in the bowery looking up at the intertwined grape vines and light coming through translucent leaves.
stayin up late at night watching lightening storms, sitting in yoga watching the clouds roll over Timpanogous and the rain dripping down all the windows.
the earth makes me feel alive inside.
for me the definition of photography is appreciation of the world around me.
trying to catch the beauty of it all. and the beauty of the people in it.

i finally found some time to work through some of the pictures from my trip i'm sure there are lots more coming but here's a start

white rock beach june 28

white rock beach june 28

bald eagle white rock beach june 28

white rock beach june 28

cannon beach june 22

cannon beach june 22

idk where june 22

haystack rock, cannon beach june 22

around seattle june 15

B.C. june 19

cape disappointment lighthouse (washington) june 23

Fort Casey june 15 

Fort Casey june 15

 oregon coast june 22

wrote this the night of that ridiculously pretty sunset not to long ago, got around to posting it now :)