mr. chamberlain.

just typing it brings a smile to my face :)

i wanted to blog about a few things for memories sake. (this is my scrapbook/journal you know)

first on the agenda:

Festival of Colors

(we will wait to finish this section once i get the pictures from him)

but let it be known that i sarah crowley crowd surfed.

his car:

i love his car.

it's a piece of crap

but so is my car

and he's taught me to drive stick shift in his car.

one time he came to timp during lunch and when i saw him he said

"you know.. your car may be the crappiest car in this entire parking lot, but it's still the one i was most excited to see.." :)

that means a lot considering anything he see's that's shiny and fast and on wheels he acts like the dogs on UP. dog- "squirrel........." mike- "mustang....." (as he watches it go by)

quick story about the car: one of the lights is broken (from when we got in a lil car accident) and sometimes it decides it likes to point straight up, other times it'll just be slightly closed and look like it's winking. but it always cracks us up. especially when we're driving down canyons at night and we can't see the road to well but oh gosh, we have those tree tops spot lighted. his car kind of has a pointy nose and it's a dark green. i remember last April when i met him, every time i'd see a car remotely close to his my heart would jump, all it would take was a slightly pointy nose on a car and i'd be completely distracted. and when it really was his car in the parking lot at school or Days my heart would race.

i was crazy about him then and i'm crazy about him now.

it was just about a year ago we hung out for the very first time outside of school, we biked up the canyon and he held my hand for the very first time up by the water fall. both our hands were really sweaty. but it was sweet.

i remember how cola and paul got us together, and then later, we got them back together.

i remember his birthday almost one year ago, i went to his house and gave him a hug. i also had a bite of his birthday steak.

i liked the way he smelled when i hugged him.

i remember going to the days everyday during lunch and both cola and my eyes would be straining hoping to find paul and mike sitting on the back of mikes car eating burritos, like always.

his birthday is this coming 25th. i want to do something special for him. because he's made this last year very special for me.

I've loved falling in love with him. i remember when i found out he was coming back from his very long trip to canada, i screamed and danced around my house and cried happy tears (my family thought i was bazerk) i remember when i had one of the hardest times in my life while he was gone, and how he listened on the phone while i spilled and cried, and how comforting he was. I remember the first time i saw him after he came home, it was very sweet.

he helps me realize my own self worth.

it's hard to believe it's already been a year since i met him.

time flies.

and that we've been together for ten months.

that's not all that long, but it feels even shorter.

there are so many moments i don't want to forget, like slow dancing in the parking lot, or little conversations, and the way his face wrinkles when he smiles. long walks, growing and learning together. the kind of conversations that make you really think. we push each other to be better people. i love how when i'm driving away from his house he stays outside till i'm out of view. how i catch him smiling and looking at me. doing hand stand together. geocaching together, hiking and enjoying nature. playing sardines with his entire family (all of us. mom, dad, tj, steph, everyone was crammed behind a desk. tj- "please.. nobody fart.") i love his family. i love how i can talk to him about anything and everything. i love being able to witness his life. i love jumping off his back porch onto the tramp with him. i love him. i want him to be happy. no matter what happens ever, this has been so good.