Love After Love

The time will come
when, with elation
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror
and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.
You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.
Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

Derek Walcott

i was sitting in borders (as i often do) sipping, smelling, listening, enjoying, and relaxing (as i often do) and i found this poem on the beginning pages of The Time Travelers Wife.
this poem speaks "sarah", anyhow, it spoke to me.
No, i'm not going through any tramautic heart break, i actually don't have desperate notes on my book shelf.
and i'm actually in a very happy relationship
but,
i am learning to be me, what makes me happy, how to choose happy despite the things that make me sad, what i want and how i can get it. I'm dreaming my life.
i'm done with this whole lending hearts gig.
you know the whole "you have stolen my heart" thing?
really?
Dear Dashboard confessional,
your lyrics stink.
love,
me
how about a happy, building, enjoying, contentmet filled relationship?
instead of needing, pulling, discontentment filled relationship?
you know what? nobody can fill you up, complete you, or make you perfectly happy other than you.
i'm sarah, i'm me, and i'm ready to be a happy individual :)
with or without you
(but hopefully with)

this poem goes right in the genre of Shel Silversteins brilliant book The Missing Peice Meets The Big O.
becky introduced me to this book, so thanks. and somebody probably introduced becky to this book, so thanks to you too. and Shel Silverstein wrote this book, so i'll thank him as well.
to read it
click this
it's about being a happy complete person, A complete O with no missing pieces happily bouncing through life.

Goal: be a big O

a relationship can eat you up and make you empty and without self. or you can build yourself into a beautiful person and help each other reach great heights.


so.. this is my mentality.
and i like it :)

the end.